When we don’t know
What we are
Where we are
What we are doing
We will create an image of ourself, of where we are and of what we are doing. This is a self image, then the real self dies and the false self image takes over. This is to be possessed by a home made demon. This is the problem (the self). This is resistance, conflict, struggle against what is, against what we are and against what we are doing.
Self imposed second force
What I believe about my limitations (not-I’s) such as I don’t have time, I don’t have money, I don’t have ability. Self imposed second force blame; it’s all in the psychological realm.
Contrived second force
This is applied by institutions which put all sorts of rules and obstacles in front of a person. Obstructions prevent you from being whole, rules to run your business that you do not need etc. All this is done unconsciously to confuse and agitate people. When people are confused they they separate from conscious awareness. People are then more easily controlled. There is no such idea as equality, management vs labor, male vs female, white vs black, age vs youth, wealth vs poverty. Man lives in a closed society, a contrived society to have a controlled society. This is done by suggestion to get people to feel that they need regulations. Then the rules come. This produces a constant state of emergency.
The greatest threat to consciousness is suggestibility. All difficulties come because we are highly suggestible, it we do not realize it. The weak spot in our structure is the suggestibility factor, but it can be our greatest strength when we are awake and aware.
Frustration—state of feeling that arises in a person when he or she has set a goal and is failing to reach it. This is true regardless of what the goal is or what is preventing the realization of the goal.
The part of us which is conditioned is conditioned to do easy things. We tend to become weak and live by the 4dbus, loosing the power to do.
Real doing is going against some strong impulse of so called nature (4dbus) The doing implies a degree of liberation from mechanical living, thinking, etc. The idea must be given force or be actualized in life for it to have any value. To act (inner) —-making up the mind to do some outer act by going in an opposite direction from the usual automatic routine.
If I think being free is to satisfy the egotistic impulses (4dbus) I have not accepted the responsibility to serve higher power—being consciously awake.
I am usually conditioned to drift passively to ease, to please, to be comfortable with a new set of ideas as justification to satisfy A and B.
Essence is born as potential in each. Personality (A and B) is acquired or learned, imitated, copied, ingrown, and with it there are habits and pleasures, etc. Consciously or unconsciously we must make effort to see and thus to overcome the inertia of the matter of A and B. When A or B dominates I disintegration takes place in the essence. I, or the essence, must be developed to dominate A and B. We must see the harmful effects A and B at work on our essence and work to ask ourselves the question “Do I see the what I am doing?”
Goal setting verses aim direction.
1. Is my happiness dependent on having, doing, being, or others doing, being, or having blank, blank, blank, whatever it may be.
2. Has this person agreed within not to be happy until the goal is realized?
3. Would you be anxious to reach the goal?
4. Is to be anxious to have feelings of frustration and emergency?
5. Does this frustration and emergency result in in bodily preparation to fight or run?
6. Does this produce internal conflict and stress?
7. Does it not appear that I have an unconscious motivation to be frustrated?
Escapes and substitutions. The following are automatic escapes from reality:
1. Drink
2. Sex.
3. Religion.
4. Pursuit of education.
5. Distraction, such as worry and anxiety.
6. Civic work, doing good, helping others.
7. Political ideologies, race and creed.
8. Health foods, all other causes.
Do I create something as an escape? Does this compound I’s problem as trying to escape the escape? Does this lead I into endless theories by those who profess to help with problems? Are these theories only more escapes? What is it that I want to escape?
A self originating being, a good guest, sees when to cooperate and when not to cooperate.
Your inner state of being is like a tin can kids can kick down the street. The greatest power you can exercise is to take charge of your own inner state.
Work and struggle produce a certain inner feeling.
You have a CHOICE to determine any INNER FEELING you want………you are not hung up when you have a choice are you?
Not I’s are fortune tellers. They have been called familiar spirits, soothsayers, and various other exotic names.
There are two factions we refer to as A and B. They are in total disagreement. What they disagree about is which series of false suggestions they sell to I to relay to X.
They each pretend to knowledge of right and wrong, good and bad, what is best and full knowledge of the future. Knowledge of everyone’s motive. Of course, in total disagreement about each of these and all totally false.
They must be invoked, asked, prayed to in order to start them into action.
The formula for invocation is:
I want to do the right thing
I want to be sure and do this right
I sure don’t want to make another mistake
I want to do this all on my own
I want to do what is best
I just don’t want to get hurt
I just want to be sure I’m doing the right thing
I wonder if I did it right
I wonder why he or she did that
Why did that happen?
And all other unanswerable questions
Remember Not I’s must be invoked to start their nefarious work
That total gratification of the senses equals contentment both physical and psychological.
All gratification is partial. Physical gratification can be 90 to 98% but it is very temporary. Psychological gratification is 0 to 10% and they are not even temporary.
To see that satisfaction refers to a state of the senses-physical and psychological-and that contentment refers to a state of being.
This is the way it is and I am thankful that it is this way. I am content to be dissatisfied.
I am enthusiastic to experiment in various ways to get partial and temporary gratification. Some experiments I will flush, some I will use again and some I will modify.
The great falacy is that:
I must be totally satisfied to be contented.
Would that be a pretty good “good” to have to you? (No) That wouldn’t be if you had total charge of it? That wouldn’t worthwhile to you would it? (No not to me) But if you could have charge of your world that you could have it all just, (well I would not have things like starving children) well that’s not in your world, this is your world I’m talking about. That’s their world. But if you was in charge of everything in your world, you could have it pretty well couldn’t you? Cause you could have anything you wanted is that right, huh?
You would have it pretty well couldn’t you? Is that right? And before you could have charge of everything in your world you’d have to start with I am doing this instead of blaming me or Joe Blow or Charlie Cartrocks or somebody else wouldn’t you? Cause if you blame you can’t have charge of it could you? Because you’ve given me the authority to run your world if you blame me. Huh? Is that correct? So the first thing is as long as we blame someone we have made an authority, haven’t we? Cause if I blame you for my attitudes I have made you my authority, is that right? Huh? Is that correct? And then if I have made you my authority I’ve given you my power to control me and my circumstances over to you, and you probably don’t even know it, so it’s probably thrown in the trash can, you wouldn’t even use it, is that right? And hear I’ve thrown my power away, and you’ve got it, and you don’t even know you have it so it’s wasted, isn’t it? So as long as man blames the environment he is an effect of the environment and he’s made the environment his boss, it’s his authority. You see man was given Dominion and authority over all things, and the first thing he wanted to do is get rid of it, he wanted that not this, and he had this so he immediately begin to give it away didn’t he? Huh? I wonder if the good that we can conceive of is to be entirely in charge of my world. That would be a start wouldn’t it? And before you could have entire charge and have no authorities over me, total freedom, therefore I would have nothing controlling me, I would have to start with maybe I am doing this. And then maybe I would have to know what I am doing, so possibly if we started with a question like, “What am I doing?” We would begin to catch around. Maybe what I’m doing is giving all my power away, and making you my authority, and blaming you for not taking good care of it.
