Monday, January 28, 2019

From tape 9 Accounts receivable

"I" believe that "I" am victimized by you and others into being made to feel angry, guilty, fearful, insecure, envious, jealousy and etc. And "I" believe that it is all your fault that "I'm" in this miserable state. Now, how much would the person have to pay before "I" cancel the debt and say, "I feel wonderful, all is forgotten."

You see, we have the idea of "forgiving" and we use it quite freely. But if one will observe the self when a given incident is brought up, one will find that the self wants to kick and scream and make all kinds of turmoil because the account has not been cancelled. We use the word "forgiveness" and we say, "I forgive" but actually only X can cancel that. So I  can observe the self,  report it to X, and we can experience forgiveness.

But I don't believe a one of us can truly forgive. 

You see, the nature of I is to report accurately as to "what is" to X. Not what it seems to be when seen through the ideal of the world, which is what makes the debt. When one reports that this was an illusion, that nobody really owes the self down there anything, then X forgives. And one may experience that forgiveness, that lightness, that entire new state of being. But one cannot forgive, one only can use the words.