From notes

 See the necessity of staying awake. Danger does not come from the outside but from within.. I AM THE DANGER. “My” basic misconception is the idea that “all my difficulties” arise from without, from outside of me”. Something or someone else is to blame. I am awake to others in an attempt to gain what they gain and escape what they escape (or don’t gain or don’t escape) so I won’t feel inferior, but “I” am asleep to “I” and the behavior “I” indulge in.Outside psychological danger is only a daydream I’ve made up, a serial movie that I create. 

No matter how I tag it, I still refuse to be responsible because I do not study and understand “I”. I still am protecting the beliefs that I accepted and are accepting. Because I refuse to be responsible, I still believe that others can “make me mad”, that others can “worry me”, that others are the problem, that an anthropomorphic image is in charge and will take care of me, that I am a good kid and everyone else is pure trouble. Fine, as a sleeping conditioned machine I am all that. As a living being, I can behave (act, play a role) as if I am limited and tied to all these misconceptions, but I can SEE that only unconscious machines can operate and destroy themselves in this fashion. As a living being, I can be responsible to see these beliefs, to understand that I am in charge, to take the responsibility and to be responsible. I am doing it all, only I can do it all. I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS THE POWER TO DO THE THINGS THAT I BLAME OUTSIDE FACTORS FOR. Those elements have no power, I try to force it upon them in my sleeping state. I see that I AM the power, therefore no outside persons can have any influence on me, nor can they be “good” or “bad”. There can be no opposites, there is only power which is, neither good nor bad, male or female, but totally neutral. 

I blame my feelings (as outside entities) for how I behave. Feelings are daydreams, I can only ‘feel’ when I am asleep. In an awake state, I have sensations but not feelings, not emotions. I must create feelings and emotions by passing sensations through the screen of conditioning, through the ‘transformer’ the 1st decision which distorts the sensations.

I, the intelligence, am the power. Feelings are the hangovers of infancy, Santa Claus, hob goblins, etc. The only way I can be aware of ‘my’ beliefs, (my feelings) are to see them act in relationship to the moment of of experiencing. 

I am the only one who has power in relationship to ‘I’. I am the problem, I can be the joy. However, I am the power, I do create the ‘feeling’, I make the stress. When I deny this, or refuse to look at it, I am playing (unconsciously) the role of the sleeping dying being. 

As long as I believe that my feelings occur through you, from you, or because of you, I can see no necessity to stay awake. 

Teaching ideas/cards

 We will have NO problems if we don’t make anything important. 

There is no truth to the 7 basic decisions. They are all lies.

If we are finding fault, we are looking through a misconception. 

The four questions:

What am I?

Where am I?

What’s going on here?

What can I do?

Provide true perception and feeling. Energy is generated. The body regenerates. We are renewed. Energy flows properly

From Teching ideas/cards

 Prime misconception. That I can live on planet earth without being disturbed.

I refuse to react to other people’s reactions.

We are sowers of seed. What kind of seed do we sow?  Peace? Love? Joy? Our mood, attitude is our seed. We live in that which we radiate.

From Headlines

 When one is aware that one is being manipulated constantly by the four dual basic urges, one is aware that all one really wants is to be in a state where one is not manipulated by the four dual basic urges.

From Headlines

 Agape is being aware that whatever he or another is doing, has done, or will ever do, at the moment of doing the act, he feels he is right, proper, and justified. This criteria, of feeling right, proper, and justified, is what is used when one performs an act. One cannot blame another, criticize another, feel guilty himself if one is aware of and is in the state referred to by the word agape.

Without agape one is really not human, much less a spiritually evolved man.

The nature of struggle, conflict, and resistance

 A The three questions of torment

1. Did I do “right” when I did so and so. (Past)

2 Am I doing “right” by doing so and so? (Present)

3 Will I be doing “right” if I do so and so? (Future)

B Attempt to change self

1. Self, with a small “s”, is our feeling about things.

2. We did not create ourselves, nor can we change ourselves. 

3. We can change our responses—X will change the self.

C The fallacy of being bound by “should” and “oughts”

1. The “shoulds” and “oughts” can be valuable to show us what might be to our advantage. 

2. The “shoulds” and “oughts” might then become “coulds”.

D The meaning of being “out of time”

As a car gets out of “time”, so do people get “out of time”.

1. Their attention is directed to what was or what will be, thus missing the experiment of this moment, of what is.

2. They are in a constant state of worry, struggle, conflict, and resistance about wasting time. 

3. There is a mental preoccupation with the past and the future, living half numb to the reality around them,

E The futility of trying to live in the past and the future.

1. There is nothing we can do about the past. 

2. By looking at the past, we judge what was then, is now.

3. Once we think we “know” someone or something, we close our minds to the thrill of discovery.

4. We look to the future for our “happiness” and tomorrow never comes.