Not I’s

 Not I’s are fortune tellers. They have been called familiar spirits, soothsayers, and various other exotic names.

There are two factions we refer to as A and B. They are in total disagreement. What they disagree about is which series of false  suggestions they sell to I to relay to X. 

They each pretend to knowledge of right and wrong, good and bad, what is best and full knowledge of the future. Knowledge of everyone’s motive. Of course, in total disagreement about each of these and all totally false.

They must be invoked, asked, prayed to in order to start them into action.

The formula for invocation is:

I want to do the right thing

I want to be sure and do this right

I sure don’t want to make another mistake

I want to do this all on my own

I want to do what is best

I just don’t want to get hurt

I just want to be sure I’m doing the right thing

I wonder if I did it right

I wonder why he or she did that

Why did that happen?

And all other unanswerable questions

Remember Not I’s must be invoked to start their nefarious work 

The Falacy

 That total gratification of the senses equals contentment both physical and psychological.

All gratification is partial. Physical gratification can be 90 to 98% but it is very temporary. Psychological gratification is 0 to 10% and they are not even temporary. 

To see that satisfaction refers to a state of the senses-physical and psychological-and that contentment refers to a state of being.

This is the way it is and I am thankful that it is this way. I am content to be dissatisfied.

I am enthusiastic to experiment in various ways to get partial and temporary gratification. Some experiments I will flush, some I will use again and some I will modify.

The great falacy is that:

I must be totally satisfied to be contented.  

Excerpt from reel to reel tapes July 1983

Would that be a pretty good “good” to have to you? (No) That wouldn’t be if you had total charge of it? That wouldn’t worthwhile to you would it? (No not to me) But if you could have charge of your world that you could have it all just, (well I would not have things like starving children) well that’s not in your world, this is your world I’m talking about. That’s their world. But if you was in charge of everything in your world, you could have it pretty well couldn’t you? Cause you could have anything you wanted is that right, huh? 

 You would have it pretty well couldn’t you? Is that right? And before you could have charge of everything in your world you’d have to start with I am doing this instead of blaming me or Joe Blow or Charlie Cartrocks or somebody else wouldn’t you? Cause if you blame you can’t have charge of it could you? Because you’ve given me the authority to run your world if you blame me. Huh? Is that correct? So the first thing is as long as we blame someone we have made an authority, haven’t we? Cause if I blame you for my attitudes I have made you my authority, is that right? Huh? Is that correct? And then if I have made you my authority I’ve given you my power to control me and my circumstances over to you, and you probably don’t even know it, so it’s probably thrown in the trash can, you wouldn’t even use it, is that right? And hear I’ve thrown my power away, and you’ve got it, and you don’t even know you have it so it’s wasted, isn’t it? So as long as man blames the environment he is an effect of the environment and he’s made the environment his boss, it’s his authority. You see man was given Dominion and authority over all things, and the first thing he wanted to do is get rid of it, he wanted that not this, and he had this so he immediately begin to give it away didn’t he? Huh? I wonder if the good that we can conceive of is to be entirely in charge of my world. That would be a start wouldn’t it? And before you could have entire charge and have no authorities over me, total freedom, therefore I would have nothing controlling me, I would have to start with maybe I am doing this. And then maybe I would have to know what I am doing, so possibly if we started with a question like, “What am I doing?” We would begin to catch around. Maybe what I’m doing is giving all my power away, and making you my authority, and blaming you for not taking good care of it. 

From notes

 See the necessity of staying awake. Danger does not come from the outside but from within.. I AM THE DANGER. “My” basic misconception is the idea that “all my difficulties” arise from without, from outside of me”. Something or someone else is to blame. I am awake to others in an attempt to gain what they gain and escape what they escape (or don’t gain or don’t escape) so I won’t feel inferior, but “I” am asleep to “I” and the behavior “I” indulge in.Outside psychological danger is only a daydream I’ve made up, a serial movie that I create. 

No matter how I tag it, I still refuse to be responsible because I do not study and understand “I”. I still am protecting the beliefs that I accepted and are accepting. Because I refuse to be responsible, I still believe that others can “make me mad”, that others can “worry me”, that others are the problem, that an anthropomorphic image is in charge and will take care of me, that I am a good kid and everyone else is pure trouble. Fine, as a sleeping conditioned machine I am all that. As a living being, I can behave (act, play a role) as if I am limited and tied to all these misconceptions, but I can SEE that only unconscious machines can operate and destroy themselves in this fashion. As a living being, I can be responsible to see these beliefs, to understand that I am in charge, to take the responsibility and to be responsible. I am doing it all, only I can do it all. I AM THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS THE POWER TO DO THE THINGS THAT I BLAME OUTSIDE FACTORS FOR. Those elements have no power, I try to force it upon them in my sleeping state. I see that I AM the power, therefore no outside persons can have any influence on me, nor can they be “good” or “bad”. There can be no opposites, there is only power which is, neither good nor bad, male or female, but totally neutral. 

I blame my feelings (as outside entities) for how I behave. Feelings are daydreams, I can only ‘feel’ when I am asleep. In an awake state, I have sensations but not feelings, not emotions. I must create feelings and emotions by passing sensations through the screen of conditioning, through the ‘transformer’ the 1st decision which distorts the sensations.

I, the intelligence, am the power. Feelings are the hangovers of infancy, Santa Claus, hob goblins, etc. The only way I can be aware of ‘my’ beliefs, (my feelings) are to see them act in relationship to the moment of of experiencing. 

I am the only one who has power in relationship to ‘I’. I am the problem, I can be the joy. However, I am the power, I do create the ‘feeling’, I make the stress. When I deny this, or refuse to look at it, I am playing (unconsciously) the role of the sleeping dying being. 

As long as I believe that my feelings occur through you, from you, or because of you, I can see no necessity to stay awake. 

Teaching ideas/cards

 We will have NO problems if we don’t make anything important. 

There is no truth to the 7 basic decisions. They are all lies.

If we are finding fault, we are looking through a misconception. 

The four questions:

What am I?

Where am I?

What’s going on here?

What can I do?

Provide true perception and feeling. Energy is generated. The body regenerates. We are renewed. Energy flows properly

From Teching ideas/cards

 Prime misconception. That I can live on planet earth without being disturbed.

I refuse to react to other people’s reactions.

We are sowers of seed. What kind of seed do we sow?  Peace? Love? Joy? Our mood, attitude is our seed. We live in that which we radiate.

From Headlines

 When one is aware that one is being manipulated constantly by the four dual basic urges, one is aware that all one really wants is to be in a state where one is not manipulated by the four dual basic urges.