From Notes

 Goal setting vs.aim direction

1. Is my happiness dependent on having, doing, being, or others doing, being, or having blank, blank, blank, whatever it may be?

2. Has this person agreed within not to be happy until the goal is realized?

3. Would you be anxious to reach the goal?

4. Is to be anxious to have feelings of frustration and emergency?

5. Does this frustration and emergency result in bodily preparation to fight or run?

6. Does this produce internal conflict and stress?

7. Does it not appear that I have an unconscious motivation to be frustrated?

Escapes and substitutions. The following are automatic escapes from reality:

1. Drink.

2. Sex.

3. Religion.

4. Pursuit of education.

5. Distraction, such as worry and anxiety.

6. Civic work, doing good, helping others.

7. Political ideologies, race and creed.

8. Health foods, all other causes.

Do I create something as an escape?   Does this compound I’s problem as trying to escape the escape?

Does this lead to endless theories by those who profess to help with problems? Are these theories only more escapes? What is it that I want to escape?

A self originating being, a good guest, sees when to cooperate and when not to cooperate.

From notes

 Frustration—the feeling that arises in a person when he or she has set a goal and is failing to reach it. This is true regardless of what the goal is or what is preventing the realization of the goal.

The part of us which is conditioned is conditioned to do easy things. We tend to become weak and live by the 4dbu’s (of four dual basic urges) loosing the power to do. 

Real doing is going against some strong impulse of so called nature (4dbu’s). The doing implies a degree of liberation from mechanical living, thinking, etc. The idea must be given force or actualized in life for it to have any value. 

To act (inner)—making up the mind to some outer act by going in an opposite direction from the usual routine.

If I think being free is to satisfy the egotistic impulses (4dbus) I have not accepted the responsibility to serve Higher Power—being consciously awake. 

I am usually conditioned to drift passively with to ease, to please, to be comfortable with a new set of ideas as a justification to satisfy A and B. When A or B dominates I, disintegration takes place in the essence. I, or the essence, must be developed to dominate A and B. We must see the harmful effects of A and B at work on our essence and work to ask ourselves the question “Do I see what I’m doing?”

 

Miscellaneous notes

 Conflict-to end it, we must know how to produce it. The easiest way is to try to be free from something.

Free to experience what ever arises in my way. 

What is important to me?

What am I anxious about?               

Is it possible that making things important produces anxiety?

Is anxiety making something important to continue that may change, or wanting to change something that may continue?

IF it were possible for you to change whatever it may be that you want to change, do you know what this would bring about in 6 mos. 1 yr 5 yrs etc? 

Do you know what your present situation would be had you done anything different in the past?

Would it appear that the desire to change is based on incomplete data?

What is the state of mind when there is acceptance of what one is, (which is constantly changing) and of the world (which is always changing)?

Could this be called peace of mind?

Is it possible to be objective without peace of mind?

Is it possible to have passive alert extensive awareness without peace of mind?

Is it possible to have spontaneous creative living (X-pressing) without extensive alert awareness?

Is this integration (the union of awareness and X)?

One usually believes from conditioning that finally, when everything is like ‘it ought to be’, there will be peace of mind. So from an unpeaceful, a fretful mind, one attempts to produce peace. This attempt is just another way to be in a state  of conflict-struggle-resistance, to continue dis-integration. Disintegration comes to an end whenever there is no conflict-resistance-struggle to change what is into my idea of ‘what ought to be’.

Again, do I know what ought to be?

From what “I” think “ought to be”, what will follow in 6 mos 1 yr, 5 yrs. etc.?

We simply do not know, do we?

When we don’t know what ought to be, is it possible to just accept what is without any struggle-conflict, resistance?

From notes

 To make anything important is an absence of Trust in X or in God

We look for an authority because we don’t want to be responsible.

Ideal-picture in the mind

Love-agape: know that whatever you or I am doing, at the time of doing, we felt it to be right,proper or justifiable. Without agape we are ZERO,DEAD. With agape, we can pass from death to life. 

Suggestions consistantly offered that “If you do what I tell you to do, you’ll be safe. 

Any attempt to be safe induces fear. Acute fear might make one be half awake. 

To understand fear, one has to look at it. To look at it, one has to feel it. Then one could see that it was suggestion of future danger or insecurity that set off the fear. 

Concern with safety creates anxiety. “X” will take care of physical survival, but it is not interested in psychological safety. 

People sacrifice their whole lives to be “safe” A constant state of fear.