From notes

 Frustration—the feeling that arises in a person when he or she has set a goal and is failing to reach it. This is true regardless of what the goal is or what is preventing the realization of the goal.

The part of us which is conditioned is conditioned to do easy things. We tend to become weak and live by the 4dbu’s (of four dual basic urges) loosing the power to do. 

Real doing is going against some strong impulse of so called nature (4dbu’s). The doing implies a degree of liberation from mechanical living, thinking, etc. The idea must be given force or actualized in life for it to have any value. 

To act (inner)—making up the mind to some outer act by going in an opposite direction from the usual routine.

If I think being free is to satisfy the egotistic impulses (4dbus) I have not accepted the responsibility to serve Higher Power—being consciously awake. 

I am usually conditioned to drift passively with to ease, to please, to be comfortable with a new set of ideas as a justification to satisfy A and B. When A or B dominates I, disintegration takes place in the essence. I, or the essence, must be developed to dominate A and B. We must see the harmful effects of A and B at work on our essence and work to ask ourselves the question “Do I see what I’m doing?”